tat ger

2008-02-21T01:17:00.001+08:00

i got no idea what im supposed to do. i tried to help you. i want you to be optimistic. yes i know this injury is a big blow to you. and i seriously know how afraid you are. this period of time is very crucial for you. and i know that somehow an incredible amount of stress has build up within you. i know all these are inevitable. but one thing you cant forget is that, this thing is already a fact. its already a fact that you’ve injured yourself unknowingly. what must i say to you so that you will see this fact? no matter what you do now , its not gonna help you in any way. all you can do is to take care of it in any ways you can.

care? if all i know is to give you all the care you need but ignoring the fact that i can do more things to help you then aint i a big failure? asking you to rest more ( isnt this a form of care) . i tried to check out if there’s anything else i can do. medically what’s wrong with you aint i doing enough? yes i didnt tell you all these but judging things just because you don’t know them is the worst thing you can do to someone.

selfish? yes i admit to certain extent i am. but look, i’ve been living my life for someone for the past 1 yr plus. i need some life of my own. its time for me to live for myself. just this short period am i asking too much?

always tink of only myself? i cant imagine this kinda words actually come out from your mouth. even if i told you what i did for you, at the end of the day this kinda comment still originates from you. i know most probably u dont mean it. humans do make mistake. but i cant really accept repeated mistakes.

2008-02-04T11:08:00.000+08:00

其实幸福很简单
平安快乐到永远
轻轻靠着你的肩
感受这温暖不需要任何诺言
这就是快乐也是最平凡
每一刻都由你值得去挥霍
我不要你承诺你的所有
只要我们都记得同一个幸福片段
其实幸福就是这么的简单

shannon

2008-01-18T11:22:00.000+08:00

i've decided to post sometin be4 i leave

hey babe
i noe u will be reading this post
so im gonna write u sometin
im touched when i recieve those msg of urs
long yet meaningful
touching yet at the right time
u always noe when is the right time
to encourage me
thx for being forever faithful as a fren
thx for bearing wif my anyhow-do-things character
thx for not trying to dig out wat i've hidden inside me
yea its definately painful to fall
but i reali learn a lot
experience a lot
n c a lot
my way of handling tins always screw it up
haha u should noe it better than me
but im learning
thx for reminding me wat im supposed to do
thx for creating tears in my eyes
i've experienced too much
tat at one point of time i couldnt take it
but yea u're rite
i aint gonna shorten my life further =)
im gonna enjoy myself so much
tat i might forget ur gifts :p
opps haha
n lastly thx for being there
ur slient presence is deeply appreciated =)

2008-01-18T10:39:00.000+08:00

IM GOING KL
bye ~

done wif final yr exam for yr 2

2008-01-17T21:41:00.000+08:00

and i shall announce nw
IM DONE WITH MY YR 2 FINAL YR EXAMS !!!!!!
ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
haha
its like a finali tin
i tink i did my best
considering the fact that
i've got quite a number of tins to handle at the same time
BUT
nv will they be an excuse
for me to do badly in my exams
i might not have done my best
but definately
i've tried my best =)

went shopping wif the gers today
didnt take any pics
ahhhhh
haha
my cam is wif bro
juz becuz i wanted sometin nice to eat
n he gonna buy for me frm taiwan
so i had to give up my cam !!!!
haha
nvm i shall wait for his return
ps : im missing him :p

going malaysia tml
im gonna miss every single one
though its a short stay
but i guess
its time for me to leave this place for a while
i need some new fresh air

n to someone
i promise i wun fake the smile anymore =)

n to everyone
i miss u all =)

last paper

2008-01-16T17:59:00.000+08:00

YES
im done wif 3 freaking exams today !!!!
haha
n nw im left 1 last paper
ECG !!!!
haha u cannot imagine how happy i am nw
gonna play tml
n i mean it
PLAY
haah
do remind me tat i needa get home early
to pack my bag
for my KL trip =)
haha n im suposed to remind jin too

im still not done yet
wif my shopping list
for my KL trip
but definately im gonna feed myself
wif tons n tons of nice food
n watch
tons n tons of movies haha

o ya
one of my lecturer said this to me :
she : enci did u lose any weight?
me : not sure haha
she: u go on diet? or r u too stress?
me : diet definately no haah stress i tink so ~ we got a lot of exams recently
she : u look slimer u noe... i mean u're always slim but nw u look slimer
me : o my ~ haha i eat a lot... reali
she : haha do take care ~

haha its so sweet of her
to notice tat
i lose some "fats"
haha but i seriously eat a lot
reali ~
haha

tml LC, GEMS n pharmo test

2008-01-15T11:16:00.001+08:00

im kinda worried for my LC test tml
haha
even though hong hwee said tat
i should join drama club
haha
but im still worried la !
chill enci ~ haha

sch tml
again
haah
yea
im like done for my GEMS revision?
ewwwww
i tink im done la

left wif 1 last ECG paper
n u will c the happiest girl on earth
haha
yes ! its me !

n to all
i noe all of u
are veri worried bout me
but enci here
promise
haha im fine =)
reali ~
even if one day the world fails me
im still able to accept how tins are
so no worries =)

n for jin
damn u ytd sound like a grandma
haha
but i still love u a lot
i noe wat u meant ytd
n i promise
i noe wat im doing

im going malaysia
real soon
haha
im leaving
reali...

out after 0013 paper

2008-01-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

finali
i get to go out today
its so fun
reali
im laughing for the whole day
i noe it aint special
cuz
enci is always laughing
but jing han is reali damn funny
hui jin is super lame
n im so happy to be surrounded by them
haha
i love my frenz
cuz they are as retarded as me =)

im done wif 2 papers
1 more to go in heart centre
2 more in sch
1 will be LC module
n the other GEMS
wasting my time
AGAIN
haah

im so dying to go malaysia
n someone is dying to go too huh
haha

my movie tin is still not up yet
jin promised bout the movie marathon
plus a nice cake in the cafe we saw juz nw
another nice meal in marche
clubbing after her exams
or maybe chilling out at a pub
haha
im anticipating
FUN !!!!

okie im done wif everytin
haha
off to slp soon
i hope so
=)

days~

2008-01-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

i've finished the notes on pulmonay hypertension
ewwwww
haha
its like the worst notes u can ever read
its like reading sometin
when u dunno wat it's about
ewww
haha
but the fact tat i finished it
im damn proud of myself =)

parade ytd was fun
sher n me had great fun
shouting
screaming
cheering one another up
like =
me : hey my butt damn heavy la
sher : i carry for u
and
sher: hey run run quick !
me : again?~?~
sher: haha let's compete
me : great sounds nice
( both runing backwards instead of forward)
haha can u believe it?
a 20yr n 19 yr old COs playing this kinda game?
haha
work was tiring defiantely

today~
ahhhh
i didnt manage to make it to esplanade
to c michele on stage
for her guitar performance
im terribly upset bout this
but i noe she will perform well haha

paper tml
haha
i wanna slp ~

wen qing

2008-01-11T12:38:00.001+08:00

thx dude
u noe who u are
thx for encouraging me
though u did not directly reply my qn
but i noe tat u have ur reason
im thankful tat i didnt give u a chance
at least i did not hurt someone so wonderful
u r great
but its juz the wrong time
n when the time is right
u might be gone frm my life

to u

2008-01-11T12:38:00.000+08:00

i got no idea wat i've told u last nite
its like sometin telling to me sae those tins out
i've been rather stressed up
unknowingly by all these tins
there are a lot of emotions within me
which i dun even noe
u managed to force some out
but not all i noe
the fact tat i juz hope to be left alone
will be so painful for u
yet i noe
u will be better off without me
i heard ur cries last nite
wondering if i've done sometin wrong
u sae i shouldnt push u away
but u got no idea im trying to minimize ur hurt
love aint suposed to be like tat
it should be as sweet as choc
and as innocent as a kid
if the love u had for me
is meant to hurt u
den it aint beautiful at all

movie

2008-01-10T10:59:00.000+08:00

watched ' I am Legend' ytd
i got no idea how to describe the song
its juz like typical will smith's show
some part of it
will get super boring
but some part is rather interesting
touching n wateva u can tink of
the show was okie
the zombies are freaking ugly
kinda scary too
the sound effect
ewww
haah
luckily i warn hong hwee bout the zombies
if not we might have a heart attack inside the cinema
haha

despo guys

2008-01-09T16:41:00.001+08:00

guys nowadays
proved to me
how despo they can get
taking my pic right in front of me???
i hate myself for being so stupid
nw im all alone
tinking wat's gonna happen

a grp of frenz
interested in me???
damn
u guys aint tat free rite?

stare as if they didnt c a ger be4
sounds okie if they ain attach
but its so wrong
when one moment
u're hugging ur gf
n the nxt moment
ur eyes are filled with another ger

long post

2008-01-09T16:41:00.000+08:00

im so so so tire
ya reali
tire
i seriously need an organiser
it seems tat my life is going messy
so messy tat i reali need sometin
to get me organized
my previous notebook
which i used last yr
is bout to fail me
time to change a new one

test today was bad
ewww
haha
everyone
is copying
too many test coming up
every single one
crash into one another
like its meant to be

my hols is onli till 25 feb
how can they do this to me !!!
n i've to go back for 2 hrs on valentine's day???
damn !
haha
im intending to spend tat day
wif everyone
haha at least bro lester wun sae
enci quite pathetic

i got no idea wat im doing
mum's right
we look more than friends
i cant sae those words to u
cuz it means too much to me
it aint a game
its a commitment
it aint juz 3 words
its everytin to me
u've been reminding me
how much i mean to u
n how much those 3 words mean to u
but i've been reminding u
tat we're juz frenz
a hug is onli meant to mend this broken heart
a kiss is onli meant to give me a sweet dream
n the hands are onli there
to tell me tat u will hold onto me
till the very last moment
but how much do i need all these?
i got no idea

u again

2008-01-07T17:45:00.000+08:00

i hate u for making me worry
creating trouble out of no where
i hate u for making me the bad person
as if all ur sadness is all becuz of me
why cant u juz let me go on my life
peace is all i wan
u get it
love aint supposed to be like tat
u said u love me
den wat r all these damn tins about
u gave me watave attitude when its not even my fault
wat do u wan????
u gave me pressure out of nth
wat's wrong ?!?!

class bbq

2008-01-06T17:03:00.000+08:00

class chalet ytd
went for the bbq
not working todae
bbq ytd was fun
we crapped n luff at each other
asked bout everyone's life
n its a gd tin to noe
how gd they r living
sarah is so great
studying music nw
i reali envy her
envy her talent
n love for music

ate quite little ytd
cuz rest of the time
were spent on crapping
took kinda lotz of photos
i juz miss all of them =)

i kinda forgot wat did i sae ytd
i was half sober n half drunk
didnt had much
bel said its becuz im sad
sry to bel n qian
if i caused any trouble ytd
sry for the tears
they aint meant to be there
i tried to rmb wat i said ytd
n wat u guys told me ytd
all i rmb was qian reminding me
tat im happier nw
thx babe

there r many tins
kept in tat small brain of mine
i thought im handling well
but when new tins r added in it
i screw everytin up
i feel better nw

see im smiling =)

raymond

2008-01-04T13:44:00.000+08:00

im feeling terrible nw
not wanting to be protected by u
but u're foreva appearing in front of me
i dun wan tat
i dun even need tat
look im living so well nw
i dun need u to be there for me
im fine standing alone
even if i need someone
my frenz are here

3 yrs later
give me 3 yrs

2008

2008-01-03T18:02:00.000+08:00

test today was totally screwed up
im juz praying real hard that
it will be okie
my mood for studying is finali here
yes !

im craving for movies
n i mean
a lot of them
reali

im craving for marche
damn i juz love the food there
jin ~ haha
u noe wat i wan :p

i've never reali posted anytin bout 2007
let me do a summary
everyone commented that
2007 was a bad yr for me
i dun agree to this
even though 2007 was a big turn for me
a lot of tins happened
but i guess it made me stronger
and grow up better
knowing how to deal with tins better
and learning how to cope with every single tins
i noe tat this yr will be better for me
im gona make it gd
real gd
im gonna play hard
study hard
n love hard

i discover how love can be
as sweet as chocs
as painful as death
i choose to believe that
true love is still sweet

i discover how warm
family can be
though some tins happened
that made me reali wanna stay away frm home
but the fact that
they love me
more than anyone else on this earth
make me tink tat
i'll still wan this as my home
and i love them more than anyone else too

i still like the idea
of playing with my frenz
no matter who
i find them the best ppl on earth
i know a lot of ppl
but the fact that i onli label some
as frenz
makes them precious to me
everyone of u
r so precious to me

new yr eve

2008-01-02T17:58:00.000+08:00

wat's new yr eve without these babes =)
lotz of pics taken of cuz haha
wif the new digi cam dad bought
ahhhh!!!!!
haha
enjoy the pics :p

me n jin in marche
we were so high inside haha
trust me
the food there makes us smile till we cant stop
if onli my tummy can store more :p

i insist on having this cake :p
me n qian
of cuz the whole grp haha poor jin her hand is aching in this pic :p

n the 2 pretty babes... bel n qian =)

new yr eve

2007-12-31T13:18:00.000+08:00

its been a messy week for me
i've been sick for
u -noe- how -long
the fever was okie
lasted for like 3 days?
near 4 ba
its my gastric tat's killing me
i feel like puking every min
i hate food recently
ewwww
but im better nw la
i got no idea wat's happening
but im thankful that im better nw

the east coast trip was gd
super gd
even though im rewarded with
tons of blue black
n a case of mars banging into earth ( yk noe wat's wrong)
but its reali veri fun
ps : bro we go again nxt time =)
im terribly sry for not able to join the babes for the vivo tin
my gastric is giving me a lot of prob tat nite

let me c wat i've missed out
yea guys r giving me a lot of prob recently
A LOT !

tat's all
out to vivo later
=)

leave me alone

2007-12-28T12:36:00.000+08:00

i got no idea but to ask why
why muz there be more than friendship
btw 2 opposite sex

i got no idea wat i wan nw
its obvious
im juz living my life like how it goes
smoothly and tat's it

sometimes i juz wish
leave me alone

its u again?

2007-12-28T01:29:00.000+08:00

in the past
u lost this grp of frenz
but nw
u got them back
at first i was worried
but come to tink of it
wat right do i have

christmas eve

2007-12-24T21:12:00.001+08:00

i so damn feel like puking nw
went to town again
to get cookies for my bro
haha for wateva reason
he bought me the mascara i wanted
so i decided to get him sometin too

everywhere is so crowded
juz makes me feel so sick
went over to visit ong san n aunty wendy
they r overwhelmed haha
i miss them too
n it seems like they still dunno anytin?
i thought they should noe
i mean its such a "big" tin
tat ppl love to gossip about

i noe u're not the one
the feeling is juz diff
but u reali disappoint me
to the max

jerks

2007-12-24T21:12:00.000+08:00

none of u r the right one
nth is right at all !

out for presents

2007-12-23T15:00:00.000+08:00

im havin slight fever nw
n im going out later
haha
no choice i needa get some christmas present

meeting jin later
finali i get to c her
for like few hrs

this means a lot to me
haha reali
a lot !

christmas wish

2007-12-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

i notice tat
end of the year is approaching real soon
afraid tat i do not have sufficient time
to blog these
i shall blog it today

i wish :

my parents
to stay happy forever as a pair
i thank them for their love
the love that nv change
even though im a rebellious n stubborn girl
u 2 noe how much i love the both of u
thanks for wiping away my tears
and say : we love u darling

my bro
to have a fruitful life
and thanks for the happy bdae u said to me
thanks for showing me
how much u care for me
n how unhappy u are
when u noe im hurt

my frenz
i wun be here
if u guys are not arnd
thanks for always letting me noe tat
no matter wat happens u guys are forever there
sry for causing so much worries
i love all ur craziness
i love all ur fun
n i love all of u =)

my frenz who are in love
i give all of u
my blessings
may this love be forever sweet
afterall that's wat love is =)

my frenz who are not in love
babes ! the time is not right yet
sometimes having early relationship
is not that gd too
wait patiently
and the right one will appear
n show u the right meaning of love =)

bro lester n nic
u 2 are forever that caring
towards me
im thankful for all the effort u 2 put in
to make me feel better
all the best bros

prac test

2007-12-22T19:56:00.000+08:00

my whole nite was terrible
with a up and down temp
panadol for the whole day
eyes swell as normal

test today was weird
i couldnt concentrate
of cuz
i didnt get to slp the whole nite

the clinic tat i always go to
will reopen on 27 dec
gd huh
this means tat i wun have med
till 27 dec

i missed the make up class ytd
just becuz im having a fever
and i look like a ___
when i turn up for test today

jing han sae tat i'm fine
thank goodness

arena

2007-12-21T12:47:00.000+08:00

wed nite out at arena
a nice place???
i got no idea
kinda okie ba
the whole atmosphere is better than zouk
but the light there is terrible
it makes me super giddy
but the whole feeling was okie

damn i would have said yes
if u didnt put ur hands on my waist
a nice guy i would sae
at least he asked

i started opening my eyes
n ask myself
if this is wat i wan
y did tat touch
feel so nice n secure
when its onli out of fun

they sae if one day someone kidnap me
i wun noe
n i find this
quite true :p

u?

2007-12-21T12:18:00.000+08:00

im getting worried nw
it seems like
nw i wish u could c this post
look
i dun mean to stare
it wasnt intentionally
u might be tinking tat
im being bad for not smiling
being petty for staring
but the truth n fact is
i couldnt rmb u
at all
all i noe is tat u're someone familar
but back to reality
angela said : wat's so nice bout rmb u

love?

2007-12-18T22:30:00.001+08:00

just when i stop n look at myself
i started complaining again

i nv reali had a guy tat love me truely
3 relationship in the past?
but none consist of true love
miserable huh

wat does it mean
when a guy sae : i love you
and yet look at other gers on the street?

i've been doubting this phrase
for the past few months
love???
wat does it reali consist of?
responsiblity? care ? respect?

i got no idea
since i failed in all 3 relationships
it juz signify that im bad in it in one way or another

i always thought tat as long as
u give in ur true feelings
n reali love
u'll get back the same in return
only then i noe
i was terribly wrong

u wun get back the same
if that guy dun love u
the way u did

den it all went back to my qn
what does it mean when a guy sae : i love u

to be frank
it means nth to me
cuz all i wan is not to hear the 3 words
but to c them

the onli tin which i will nv complain about:
i love my character
i find it special in one way or another
im made up of gd and bad points
im proud of my gd
irritated by my bad
but i believe tat its these gds and bads
that make enci

clubing nite

2007-12-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

im out for some fun tml =)

???

2007-12-17T10:37:00.001+08:00

i cant change my blog skin
and im feeling sad regarding this
haha y y y????

random

2007-12-17T10:37:00.000+08:00

im supposed to go back
to malaysia like real soon
but my plan was screwed up

finali im meeting jin to get my tins
FINALI~
haha poor ger
she's like so busy

its like
mid month
n im broke

i needa work
i wanna work
but i need to study more

ewwww~

frm someone's post

2007-12-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

if a gal cried infront of u,
it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
if u take her hand,
she will stay with u for the rest of your life;
if u let her go,
she couldn't go back to herself anymore.

A gal wont cry easily,
expect infront of the person
who she loves most,she become weak.
A gal wont cry easily,
only when she loves u the most,
she put down her ego.
Guys, if a gal cries because of u,
please hold her hand firmly,
she's the one who would stay with u
for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a gal cries because of u,
please dont give her up,
maybe because of ur decision,
u ruin her life.
when she cry infront of u,
when she cry because of u,
look into her eyes,
can u see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?

THINK.
which other gal have cried
with pure sincerity,infront of u
and because of u?
she cry not because she is weak,
she cry not because she want sympathy
or pity,she cry,
because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain,hurt, and agony
have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

GUYS,think about it,
if a gal cry her heart out to u,
and all because of u,
its time to look back on wat u have done,
only u will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,cause one day,
it may be too late for regret
it may be too late to say"i'm sorry"
dont do this to a gal,
u may regret for the rest of your ife,
maybe in ur life,she's the only one that LOVE U THE MOST!!

i got this frm somewhere obviously
n started pondering on every single word

rackie at och

2007-12-16T21:09:00.000+08:00

rackie on sat was gd
but tiring
cuz i didnt get enuff slp
yes ! no lizards
or rather there is but since my face is like
so high up
therefore i see none =)
went over to OCH
rackie???
yes haha
weird but i guess funny
we explored the whole place
but guess my gers r not using it
haha

when they sae the gers will appear to be like their officers
yes they do
they have my blur and timid
of cuz xiao hua's motherly character haha ( some ba???)

finali i rested at home on sun
though not enuff
but i shall be contented wif it

todae is the worst day of my life
the onli time i step out of hse
is when i go for dinner
so the whole day
im rotting
studying
n continue rotting
i hate this feeling
of not getting out for some fun
but i reali need some rest

few days back my shoulder ache like hell
pasted sometin on it
for like the whole day
n i look like im old

breakfast was gd today
i didnt have my lunch
onli like 2 donuts, half a bar of hershey's cookie n cream
den dinner
chilli crab , sambal veg and tofu
nw my gastric is scolding me
so im feeling terrible nw
tml i shall go on a light diet
this sentence sounds so wrong
when will enci noe the defination of light diet???
i got no idea =)

my CVL prac test is on tue
ewwww
but nvm i shall go causeway point after tat
haha for u- know- wat reason =)

how long does promises last?

big girls don't cry

2007-12-15T21:22:00.000+08:00

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of*, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

The path that I'm walking I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foreseek the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of*, clarity
Peace,Serenity

fri christmas party

2007-12-15T17:29:00.001+08:00

ytd was the christmas party
we were looking forward to it
doing all the tins we can for the party
and i guess
in the end
tins are unfair towards us
sad???
yes we are

to the class :
babes we did great
we r the sweetest bunch of gers
so lets not allow those kinda words hurt us
though its hard

to tabby hong hwee n myself :
we put in lotz of effort
didnt we???
but the world is unfair
right from the start its nv fair
those stupid words of theirs hurt us deeply
but at least we can tell ourselves tat
we've done our best

im so upset
when i heard wat they said bout us
n for KPL
she was so hurt
n for the rest of the techs
thx for appreciating our hardwork
well there are bound to be black sheeps among the techs
n we are terribly disappointed in their words
women of their age
acting worst than little gers like us
how great r they as an adult?
not knowing how to appreciate at this age?
i feel sad for them
n im happy for us
cuz its a fact tat we r better than them
at least we noe the words : thank you

after the day in heart centre
was out in town wif hua n lian
we had a super fun time shopping
but i guess we r juz too tire
so there r some point of time
we r so down
haha but overall the nite is high !
haha

hey you !
yes its for u
dun worry too much if he's a nice guy
time will prove everytin
my little advice for u
is to prevent u frm getting unnecessary hurt
but the final decison is yours
u must rmb
some decisions u can sae nvm juz move on
but there r some
will foreva live in ur heart
u still have us here
loving u isnt it gd enuff?? haha

pics~

2007-12-15T17:29:00.000+08:00

finali my long waited pics r up....
there are more actuali
but im onli like posting some
fri we had christmas party and defiantely we took lotz of pics

hong hwee and me

opps where's li ting???? ting yi ~

tabby and me

finali ting yi is here ! :p

c wat r the gers doing !!!

tabby, zak n fel~

c how happy elaine is wif her food??

tabby, sab n me

tabby n me again haha

this is how we look like in our OT gown.... i hate to wear tat but no choice hahawe love playing wif the shower cap :p

going back

2007-12-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

since my top arrived today

i felt better

n im gonna go back malaysia

as soon as possible

will come back when its time for me to

sad wif u

2007-12-13T21:25:00.001+08:00

i was so upset
when u brought the whole incident up again
i noe tat ur intention aint bad
but do u have any tiny idea
how long i took to get rid of tat guilt i have
yes its a straight fact that i hurt someone be4
i didnt want that to happen
i didnt even plan for it to happen

do u noe how hard it is
to swallow every prob u have
n not saying anitin out
until the point when everytin falls flat
tat's when u speak out all ur secrets
n den u noe tat tins wun be like tat
if in the first place u asked for advice

i took so long
to face the fact tat i screwed everytin up
i screwed the guy hu loves me so deeply
juz becuz of someone so unworthy
im still blaming myself nw
but i noe tat he who once love me so deeply
juz wants me to smile
more than anything else
so i moved on
but nw
im all back to square one

do u noe tat i rather it had nv happened at all

todae

2007-12-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

i tried posting ytd
but it didnt worked out
anyway
nth much happened today
all i rmb was tat im super tire
luckily today was kinda slack for me
HA report is killing me
i did one report for a whole 2 hrs
n i nearly gave up
but nvm eventually i managed to finish it
be4 lecture
after tat i spent like few mins on another analysis
n im done wif 2 for the day =)
after lunch we did nth
onli like discuss for tml's party
n we're all looking forward to everytin !
haha another slacking time for us
den our hols will be smiling at us =)

random

2007-12-11T19:40:00.000+08:00

having pharmo test tml
KPL said tat the notes we had this yr
is the same as the one she had last time
ewww this shows how efficient SP lecturers are
HAHA

tabby said i look tire
yes i am
haha so i decided to have some coffee
n hong hwee commented tat
it doesnt help me
yea she noe me real well
haha
coffee dun create any effect on me
i dunno why

im supposed to hate coffee
i mean i hate coffee
but its true tat when im tire
i'll drink wateva tat keeps me awake
or managed to let me tink tat im awake

im not done wif my pharmo revision
i didnt even finish studying in the first place
n here i am
sticking my face on the com screen
sinful me

im depriving myself frm music these few days
cuz im practically deaf when my ear piece r on
i decided to give my ears some hols
if not its gonna rebel one day

mum is talking too loud
i cant slp
i cant study
becuz of her voice ~
damn n i sound like her !

bro is going to taiwan nxt month
for his NS tin
maybe i will get to eat tat egg tin
haha !!!!!

im learning a new dialect nw
n i sound like a kid learning ABC

if i cant even trust u
wat's the point?

regrets of life

2007-12-10T21:21:00.001+08:00

i started pondering
if im happy nw
happy with the life i've chosen
happy with the attention im given
happy with the love i've recieved
happy with the route i've taken
and i guess
i do

i dun like the phrase : what if
but i find tat
most of the time
i live my life with full of regrets
and somehow i got no reasons for those

random

2007-12-10T21:21:00.000+08:00

did i mention tat i was tire???

o my bag had arrived
the top tat i ordered has been sent out too

im having a test on wed
GEMS lesson is cancelled on wed
n im looking forward to movie i guess

attachment is getting more n more exciting each day

my long hols r coming again
cuz my exams r getting real near

attachment aint fun at all
tiring can be the easiest word to use
learning n doing at the same time
aint an easy task

im going real random nw

got some pics on hand
will upload when i have more time

crush on someone ~

2007-12-08T10:22:00.000+08:00

im super tire ytd
but i still tried blogging
in the end i gave up
or rather the internet gave up on me
connection was super bad
so i went to slp instead

ytd's ECG was gd i guess
nth much to do
first patient came in arnd 9
n there aint much of them
onli at one point
but after tat it was rather okie
lunch at 12 cuz we got lesson at 1
Dr Tan totally forgotten bout us
so he didnt come for the lecture
but mrs Ho didnt forget us
so in the end we got her lesson
but once again her lesson was short
KPL came in n have a short talk wif us
after which we're free to go home
met bro lester after tat
went to visit ah cheng
yes ! finali haha
i've been wanting to go down
but time dun allow me to
after chatting we went down to cine to meet nico n annabelle
we walked there actuali
cuz we got tons of time
n i finali noe where is ROM
haah bro sae i dun needa noe the exact location haha
okie i trust u this time round

we had BBQ chic for dinner
basically its the outlet richard is working at
he said i become skinny-er
but lester sae i become rounder
ewwww haha

after tat we were walking arnd
went down to isetan
n suddenly we missed everytin
the times when we were working tgt
n wat we will shout when someone dropped sometin
the fact tat we have to wash the ice cream machine everyday
the squeezy kit
dish up n cashier area
n floor too
aint it sometin worthy to miss?

sometins are meant to change
n nth last forever
even the relationship btw humans
its forever changing
but i guess the tin tat will nv change
is a true love =)

i c myself falling for the wrong feelings
n i hope i aint going too deep :p
its juz a crush i noe

im not going into true relationship for the time being
cuz i dun c myself ready for a true love tin
if i aint confident in loving
i will nv let it happen at all
having crush on someone aint a bad tin either huh

slp disorder unit

2007-12-06T20:06:00.001+08:00

me n fel today had a damn adventurous day
we explored the whole SGH
haha we have a reason k
we were supposed to do 44inpt in the morning
who noes everyone went for their course
n there's no one at 44inpt at all
i called kpl n she said= go walk arnd
den we walk arnd lor
haha we explored a lot of places
but our main aim is to find nursery
finali we found it
but there r no babies at all
we onli heard a lot of cries
sad huh
after tat fel insisted on going to the slp disorder unit
n we went
n got questioned
cuz i tink we're not supposed to be there
haha
my whole day is like
a slping day for me
n nw im bout to fall aslp.....

rainbow

2007-12-06T20:06:00.000+08:00

this is the first time
i look at a rainbow
at such a distance
wat a wonderful sight it was
then i was reminded
where did ur smile go to???
u are always tat strong
wat makes u tink tat
u're weaker nw???
ever since tat day
i find myself moving on real well =)

its been a while
n occasionally when i look back
im thankful for wateva had happened
cuz it made me tougher than wat i was previously
it made me learn how to appreciate even the smallest tin on earth
it made me love myself more
instead of hating myself for wateva happened
im happy wif my life nw
indeed im happier
im more like myself
i enjoy the freedom i have nw
and i juz wan it to go on this way

tire

2007-12-05T20:06:00.004+08:00

ygot back my third paper's result
haha u can c how contented i am

attachment was still the same
but im tire ~

went out wif bro lester, nico n annabelle
wanted a movie at first
but nico n annabelle went for one first
after tat me n lester walked all the way
frm central to cine
haha not reali tat far
but nw i noe where's ROM
haha
there r lotz of cool buildings arnd
so i had a nice time
we had a nice chat too
went to c ah cheng
finali had the chance to
always wanted to go
but didnt reali have the chance

my necklance broke todae =(
n im tempted to buy a new one

i still feel like getting the topshop shoe
but i needa buy my contact lens solution first

the sky is still so beautiful tonight

not in love

2007-12-05T20:06:00.003+08:00

i got no idea y
BUT
im NOT IN LOVE !!!!
or rather
im in love
wif my frenz
my family
myself
full stop =)

to wq alex n angela

2007-12-05T20:06:00.002+08:00

i hope tat this time round
i did sometin gd for this whole situation
i got no idea wat i have done to u
but i reali do hope tat
i minimise the hurt
same thing
i will continue to wish u all the best
u will find someone for u
go for her
cuz im not supposed to be the one

and ger
i seriously hope tat u or any frenz of mine
will nv go thru the same tin tat i had
so i was pretty worried when i saw ur blog
BUT
after much consideration
i trust both of u a lot
so NTH should happen
ger try to smile more
by doing tat u give him a lot of encouragement n help
he needs it nw
n bro ( u noe im referring to u )
i noe ur life is kinda "messy" nw
i tink it is????
but anyway solve everytin wif her
u 2 shall move on tgt
n me as a fren
will continue to give u 2 all my blessings =)

sweet tins

2007-12-05T20:06:00.001+08:00

i guess there r juz so mani tins to sae

work on sun was super tiring
unknowingly i worked till closing
though tire but i guess the day was gd
jeffery allowed me to stay in the kit
though i was onli kidding
after work
my hand had a smell of blood haha
the smell
tat was so familar be4
i rmb i was veri tire
on my way home
i looked at the sky
wondering wat a nice sight
the black sky was filled wif small shiny stuff
yes ! its the stars
i always loved stars ever since im young
cuz the fact tat they r able to deco the sky
makes me tink
how beautiful they are
the sky tat nite caught my whole attention
n i forgotten the fact tat
i was tire
but when i got home
i fall flat :p

mon n tue this week
im at CVL lab
again the whole atmosphere
was tense n stressful
but i guess i managed it better nw

wed sch day
quite a cool looking guy said hi to me
i thought i noe him so i smile back
in the end im left wif qn marks
do i noe him??? haha
a grp of guys in gems class were staring at us
n we or rather i concluded tat
li ting's bag caught their attention
so li ting !!! haha admit this come on !

there r certainly quite a number of tins
for me to feel sweet bout
firstly will be tat customer
hu always buy ice cream frm us
rmb???
haha somehow
she got to noe tat its my bdae on sun
n she got me a present
hello kitty tins of cuz ! haha
its a simple gift
but i find it veri sweet of her
a gift frm a customer
cool huh ~
nxt is this patient
i did holter for her when she was staying in the hospital
few weeks ago
n on tue this week
i saw her in heart centre
i called her
n she rmb me !!!!
haha
she thank me
n i guess no words can express how touch i was

sometimes little tins in this world
juz makes me feel tat
simple words like = thank you and hi
can mean a lot
and little actions
can touch anyone

of cuz
the world is still a nice n sweet place =)

pics speak a thousand words

2007-12-05T20:06:00.000+08:00

i have so much tins to sae
but be4 tat i shall post some pics first

this is wat happens when i insisted on going to somewhere near at nite
i ended up wif my specs n super big clothes ( hong hwee sae i look like im going to bed soon )
n not to forget
im munching on food =)

went for another singing session wif the gers

haha we had fun didnt we???? fel where r u ????
smile =)

yc worship

2007-12-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

thurs was okie i guess
cuz its a 1/2 day work in NHC
sec half of the day we're back to sch
for test n a talk
after tat we're like 1/2 gone
its tiring
i got no idea y
but im yawning every few mins
den i discover
im not feeling veri well -_-

fri was bad
i got shouted at by 2 patients
the first one was an uncle
rather old
so i didnt blame him
we were running thru his report
n discover sometin kinda bad
so we had to shift his appointment date nearer
in the end the date was okie
but the uncle was unhappy wif the timing
i tried explaining to him tat i will help him change
but he kept on nagging
n his voice was loud
so the whole heart centre patients / humans looked at me
den after tat another patient
he asked me / demanded a report for his wife
i got no idea y their report took so long
but the fact tat he demand = his voice is loud too
again
everyone looked at me
bringing a lot of qn marks wif me
i went back to EP room
den i noe
tat the sec patient's report cant be read
cuz she unknowing disturbed the device
wif her itchy hand
tat's y her report took sooooo long

both patient mdae my morning bad
BUT
it didnt affect my mood for too long

sat was cool
i went all the way
to ACS
alone of cuz for yc
the most impt tin is
I DIDNT GET LOST
great ~ haha
the whole tin was partially screwed
they dimed the lights till
me n heng kai cant c our scores
u noe wat
musician hu r "blind", "deaf" ( cuz i cant hear wat im playing)
cant play much
i tried to play
but the pedal , keyboard bothers me a lot
ewwww

n nw i discover tat
im gonna fall sick soon ~

bizzare love triangle

2007-11-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

Every time i think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind

There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

( i find this song real sweet n nice)
ps : take note its juz a purely nice song
full stop nth more than tat

wed pics

2007-11-29T19:27:00.000+08:00

if u noe me well enuffi've got this bad habitwhen im boredi post pics in random orders =)
this pic was taken in.....EP room i tinkwe're doing holter analysisits juz a com for us to analyse patient's ECG reporti dun reali fancy itcuz its not fun staring at lines

den on wed we had a mini bdae celebration for xiao huiwho noes it suddenly became for me tooowat happen is :they told me its for xh's bdaen they told xh its for my bdae -_-after the celebration we went to to sing k at morberlygosh i didnt noe they got this kinda tin in moberlyps : morbely is a place in my sch where we officially rot

tabby n me ( pic kinda blur haha hong hwee ! ask u dun shake le )

me n the bdae sweetie

ah ha ! hong hwee n me hahathe onli one tat will play wif me when im boredbut sometimesshe gives up too :p

my bdae cake =) its choc !!!!

c??? how unsightly they were in the room

my bdae presentHELLO KITTY PICK NECKLANCE !!!!wat happen is tat one fine dayi was browsing thru those online webstat qian gave meden i saw this on one of the shopsi wanted to buybut didnt i told hong hwee n rest bout thisn they sae : dun buy la not worth itn i agreed to itta da !!!! they bought for me :...(im so damn touch la !!!! hahacuz i reali like this necklance a lot ~~~~~

they made this booklet for mei wun sae its a cardcuz a card wun have pages in itthx darlings for the bookletim reali thankful for every single pagen ever single word u guys wroten those photos toothe whole card is juz so sweetas sweet as how it looks =)

finaliim happy wif the cake(quite obvious ar )

to beanies

2007-11-28T21:46:00.000+08:00

i'll like to end my day
by writting a post
to my beloved sch mates
u gers noe hu u r
u all r more than juz a sch mate
the foreva crapping tins we did
are juz so great

thx for the wonderful bdae celebration
plus the wonderful bdae present
thx for the effort, time n everytin
esp when we're soooo busy
thx for everytin

n to u
yes u !
haha maybe to u
ur gift aint ex enuff
but to me
its great enuff

bdae pic

2007-11-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

rmb the pics on my bdae eve???? yes !!! i've finali found some time to put in up ~ we had our dinner at breeks..... n its obvious im trying to squeeze my way in =)
then here comes the pic of shannonthis is wat happen when u're trying to take someone's (jin) pic n she took urs too
finali ~ jing han came hahai always felt tat the way we dressr sooooooo diff
after dinner + some buying of tinswe decided to head down to clarke quaytake note = i show some sign of tirenesscome on i onli had 7 hrs of slp =(
jin said tat we're gonna wait a while first be4 going to zoukso we sat n reali waitbut y she look so.....

so i decided to take a pic wif shannon insteadhaha

n finali i couldnt take it anymorei wanna GO zouk nw !ta da ~qian bel n lian arrived =)didnt have pic wif themcuz by the time they reachwe actuali took a cab to zoukthe place there do not have sufficient light for my pathetic hp to take picsanyway ~thx sweeties once againfor making my bdae tat memorableesp when u gers tried to sae happy bdae to me on the dance floorits sweet =)

as long as i've the strengthi'll keep on smiling =)

gems cancelled

2007-11-28T13:40:00.000+08:00

gems todae is cancelled
its the worst day of my life
imagine me going all the way to business block
juz for a plate of noodles?????
haha initally im supposed to have lessons there
super hungry so had a plate of noodles
after tat
hapily i went to LT
juz to c this notice : lesson cancelled !!!!!
haha we felt tat we look stupid

anyway presentation today wasnt tat gd
haha
i didnt noe why
but i felt it wasnt gd enough
but at least
it was more or less my standard
juz some bad points appearing frm no where :p

1/2 day attachmet tml
yes !!!!
haha only needa complete ECG in the morning
n im free frm heart centre
for the day onli la haha
test in the afternoon
ewww

if only u get wat i meant
get away frm me

bdae pics

2007-11-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

i've got real wonderful pic frm my bdae
shall upload it when i've the time
N
i discover tat my eye shadow can be seen in the pics
haha !!!!!
i thought my eyes r too black to c my eye shadow
there's still hope ~

my bdae

2007-11-25T21:56:00.001+08:00

my bdae was kinda messy actuali
initial plan was clubing wif 10 + peeps
but eventually some cant make it
they have super valid reasons
so im fine wif it
at last its left wif me jin n hua????
i thought it was kinda weird cuz
qian bel n lian cant make it
i thought they r like so busy
so im fine wif it too
but !!!!!!!!!
they appear juz in time =)
thx babes

clubbing was great
the whole place n atmosphere
ZOUK !!!!!
haha the guys there r hot
the dance floor is great
the ppl there r super high !!!!
juz like my type
so i had real great fun

i find it real cool
to communicate wif guys
using dance move
ps : i communicated wif one
n he's hot =) ( i rejected the rest haha !!!)
we were smiling to each other
the smile n everytin
the most fun part is
we didnt tok to each other
we frown when we were blocked by some ppl
n we laugh when we noticed each other frowning
it is a kind of short period friendship
n its cool =)
the feeling of having light shinng on u
wif those super high music
n it seemed like all the attention is on u
the whole experience
is definately memorable

after clubing
went home
n i saw my room having those deco
im so touched
every present
tat u guys bought
is juz the one i always wanted
its juz the right tin
every effort
tat those sweeties put in
im reali veri grateful
u all proved to me tat
effort frenz put in
touched me more than
the efforts a bf put in
this made me even proud of my single status nw =)
i got no idea how this whole plan works
but im reali proud of all of ur acting skills haha

n my bro
first time in my life
he said happy bdae to me
n all my frenz
hu send me greetings
thx
esp yao hui
im so proud of u haha
u rmb my bdae !!!!
n my dear dear nicholas
sry for rejecting ur call today
im having rehearsal =(
n my pri sch frenz
any other frenz hu blessed me
thx for every single word tat u guys sent to me
LOVE U ALL

lastly,

HAPPY BDAE TO ME GEOGINA N MING MING !!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND TO DEBBIE FOR HER BDAE ON 24TH

pics

2007-11-25T21:56:00.000+08:00

how was my bdae???GREAT !!!!!firstly i bought these tins for myself :

a scarf frm

a necklance frm perlini silver

a cross heart pendant frm there
a slipper pendant frm the same placeps : i love the necklance over there =)what bout my frenz????a card frm jing han ( she promised present to be given later ) when i reached home.... my bedroom door was closedso??? this is wat i saw =)
the sweeties came my hse when im out to meet them using tat time they deco my room wif presents n everytini waited for them for 30 mins???? they r quite fast actuali :p

the calendar photo jin made

a kitty cake????

the kitty puzzle tat i always wanted !!!!!ps : its 1000 piece =)

kitty ballerina balloon !!!! n it stands !!!!

this is my bdae cake :p

the kitty phone ,tat jin n hua bought for meignore my pl name tag haha

tee frm queen coutour !!!!

a kitty balloon frm them too =)

side track a bitwe had breeks for dinnerthx for jing han to appear n have dinner wif us =)

n on wedim juz so bored tat i decided to take a pic of my reflection again

they sae i look like a kid

bad dream

2007-11-24T14:28:00.000+08:00

nw i rmb y i couldnt slp a lot
i had a bad dream ytd
tat's y
a bad dream be4 i enter into a new life
ewwww
i dun like this kinda feeling
i noe i will be happy tonight

ppt

2007-11-24T10:43:00.000+08:00

i woke up freaking early today
i got no idea y
cuz i slp pretty late ytd nite
nw im like a machine
trying to complete everytin tat im supposed to
ewwww
i dun look forward to the presentation anymore
cuz the ppt is driving me crazy
calm down enci =)

damn bdae

2007-11-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

im so tired nw
juz came back frm yc rehearsal
i cant concentrate the whole nite
my fingers are going everywhere
all arnd the keyboard
i dun like the touch of the keyboard
its too light compared to the piano
my chords r going everywhere
i dunno wat im doing
im trying to concentrate
but im too tire to do so

ppt , presentation n write up is due nxt wed
i juz finish my test todae
believe it or not
my attachment had alrdy started again
im terribly drained out

nth seems to go in the right way
n since im so busy
i needa practice for yc
needa complete my ppt n write up
some real nice slp
i shall stay at home tml morning
maybe getting out in the noon
to get some tins frm gan hui

all i need

2007-11-22T21:17:00.000+08:00

all i need is someone

to hold me when im tire
to encourage me when i fall
to cheer me up when im sad
to wipe my tears when its out
to smile wif me when im happy
to scold me when im wrong
to remind me how clumsy i can get
to praise me when i deserve it
to understand me when no one does
to trust me in a way tat's so unique

and to love me using the right way

today ~

2007-11-22T21:03:00.000+08:00

toda's morning tut by NLH
drained me out totally
the whole com system wasnt gd enough
everything rebelled against me
she couldnt open her ppt
so she cant teach
n as the tech of the class
(i dunno y when i can be real stupid when it comes to IT)
i crack my head to fix everytin
i climbed up n down
juz to get the whole tin fixed
so i managed to???
of cuz not !
haha
but i enjoyed everytin
at least it wakes me up
frm my sleepy morning =)

tmx after tat was gd
but terrible cuz im super hungry !
44 inpt was worst
expected though
i ~~hate~~ that lady
im taught to love every single one arnd me
when im young
so i shall love her

did ECG on myself
2 leads fell off
n the result was funny
all im happy was tat i got a sinus rhythm =)

ytd nite was wif bro lester n hua
over at cck
the ice cream incident was terrible
haha
lucky me
but poor bro :p

n she misunderstood me again ~

scholarship

2007-11-21T17:25:00.000+08:00

i always look forward to wed
though there's lesson
but at least i get to go to sch
yea i love sch more than heart centre

sch today was fun
everyday to me is fun
haha
wif the incredible disturbing skills of mine
hong hwee is gonna go bonkers soon ~

i got a call today
during lesson
someone called frm heart centre
(3 times juz becuz i didnt manage to pick up the call)
to inform me tat i was awarded the scholarship
scholarship = no more pepper lunch working allowed
no oversea studying till bond is over
$900 bucks per mth
$950 during yr 3
sounds nice????
but im not interested

was supposed to head down to town today
but angela couldnt make it last min
n i rmb tat i have a presentation nxt week
so i've got tons of tins to do

o ya presentation
its an individual presentation
cool ~
im looking forward to it =)

im munching on chocs nw
n i miss the one sab brought frm US :p

bee movie

2007-11-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

im terribly tire nw
but i still insist
on staring at the com

bee movie is a great movie
yes im childish
come on
its gd to be pure n innocent :p

im a blessed kid =)

only love

2007-11-19T14:25:00.000+08:00

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You re telling me you re so confused
You can t make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You re asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you ll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That s something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I ve tried my best to make you see
There s hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you ll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That s something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You ll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

adam said : it doesnt matter whether ur partner is faithful or not
what matters is whether u are faithful

ps : i dun mind falling in love again :p
this is to assure jin tat im not gonna become adnormal haha
i love guys jin ~ trust me

i kept every single tin
in a corner of my hse
tat i will nv go to
im determined to be happy =)

im reminded tat i live a happier life nw =)

pics !!!!!!!!!

2007-11-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

im gonna back track a bit... on sat we're at the CIP tin for singapore heart foundation.... grps of SP students tgt wif hendersons sec kids formed a team unknowingly.... so some cute pics haha we had a super great time wif the kids....
so this is wat happens when they're not looking :p
me n hong hwee had a nice time smiling hahan i had a hard time squezzing my face in (obvious huh ) haha
i dunno y but im in love wif the can drink n ming ming is in love wif me haah she's looking at me !!!!!dun frown boy smile !
n i dunno y my hand is at such a awkard positioni managed to get in ~

happily we're a team=)

n we love u all =)

after work.. this 2 cutie sat in front of me....i had a gd luff cuz....its when the big meets the small =)
on fri...went out for a few hrs wif hong hwee for some terrible walking haah after the terrible test...after tat meet jin , qian n lian in town for some fun

i dun look short in this pic =)
the one wif qian was gd too :p
i definately look taller here =) hahaso here's the highlight of the day :

wan lian at starbucks ( tsk tsk wat kinda reaction is this?)

wan lian at hong kong cafe (ewww)

poor hui jin...
she gets better i guess haah
on wed this is wat i saw :

hello kitty car !!!!!!!!!!

n i love the mirror cuz it makes me look tall

n im doing real great =)bye ~

sweetly in love

2007-11-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

everyone's so sweetly in love
n tat includes me =)

i decided to go disturb li zhi
n i guess tat's the worst choice haha !
im stuck wif him for continuously 3 days???
haha its not like a bad tin
he's a nice source of entertainment
n i entertained him as much

im afraid tat i might fall
even be4 i realise it
im reali tire =)
tire of studying
tire of not getting enough sleep
tire of getting gastric aches
time to go back to malaysia for some relaxing
who knows i might become prettier after a trip there :p
( im dreaming again )

im bored

2007-11-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

im bored !
seriously bored
i need some form of entertainment

bro lester is finali out of his camp !

im yawning nw
but i've got a few more pages to study
be4 i can proceed to bed

im waiting for the chance
to sign up for the rope instructor course
maybe suddenly GB HQ decided to lower the age range
(im dreaming )
haha

time to plan for some outdoor activities
or maybe sometin for me to play
water sports???
rock climbing???
kayaking???
rollar blading???
okie or
ice skate???

im stoning at home
its so true
tat i cant stay at home

~~its when i no longer can feel anything =)~~

ECG paper

2007-11-15T12:50:00.000+08:00

its been a super long time
tat i last done a super easy paper
ECG paper was super easy
i guess God loves me a lot
n wants to give me a nice rest =)

i couldnt slp last nite
for wateva reason i dunno
i guess im pretty worried bout the paper
cuz the fact tat i hate ECG
haha so it kinda make me worry a lot

n here i am
looking arnd
staring arnd
when im supposed to study pharmo
pharmo test tml
needa go back to sch
again ! haha
its so boring going to places tat take like
an hr???
juz for a 1 hr paper
n u sae bye to the place
i've been doing tat for the past 2 papers
1 more paper to go in heart centre
n 2 more to go in sch
ewwww

i saw a hello kitty car ytd
didnt get to upload the pics today
cuz im lazy !
haha
its reali a kitty car
cuz it has the word HONDA HELLO KITTY
cool ~

auntie shiryln

2007-11-14T19:28:00.001+08:00

thx auntie
u noe me better than anyone else
u sense tat im falling
so u gave me a push
u scolded me
u wake me up wif ur harsh words
u make me realise how foolish i was

u're the only one
who noe tat im crying in the middle of the night
u're the only one
who noe tat i sometimes wake up
shivering in fear n sense of insecurity
tearing in pain and discomfort
u're the only one
who noe wat im tinking deep in my heart
u're the only one
who noes i look strong
but in fact i can be the weakest ger on earth
n u noe tat
i will grow

to those sweeties arnd me
im terribly sry
to make u guys worry for me
for such a foolish reason
yes im foolish
but i've learnt sometin
i felt painful
cuz i truely loved
trust me pals
i can be the most happy go lucky ger on earth =)

ys true colour

2007-11-14T19:28:00.000+08:00

u managed to give me a tight slap
on my cheek
i managed to c ur true colours
terrible and bad
yes
cuz i didnt expect this kinda ppl existed
but its okie
LISTEN
u're nth to me
juz a pathethic person
u're not gonna create anymore impact on me
tat's all
for nw n forever
AND
i did not sae tat
i refuse to let u go
GO have ur life
and thx for giving me such a nice lesson

ups n downs

2007-11-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

i dun like the fact tat
my life is full of downs
or maybe its time
to count how many ups
i've had recently

my frenz r still as gd to me
my mum fears tat i'll end my life
my GB babies r growing
im going clubing on my bdae

wat bout downs

im out of love
my family is turning upside down
cheerleading aint gd either
my body is getting weaker
im mentally tortured by everything
im physically drained
i've got too many tins for me to settle

i shall learn how to be contented

im still missing u

2007-11-13T13:44:00.000+08:00

i hear nth
juz moments of silence
every single tin tat i've studied
refuses to make its presence useful

~~when did u stop hugging me~~
when did i ever need u so much
~~when did u choose to leave me~~

u said : a true relationship will be one tat undergoes happiness n hardship

无声的背叛
原来失去是那么简单
不是你要的
为何变成一个陌生人

sad

2007-11-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

blogging nw juz shows how bored i am
i wana slp
but i guess i couldnt
im so hungry
till the extent tat i heard some noise
coming frm you-know-where
forced 3 pieces of biscuit into my mouth
the reason y i had to force
is becuz im lazy
yea the laziest person on earth
my bdae wish for this yr =
rot n be happy wif it
i still hope for a car to knock me down
at least i can be on the bed
comfortably for a few months
though boring
but a gd time for me to rest
n officially be proud to sae
im ~~SAD~~

im growing well
im living well
im going well

test

2007-11-12T17:30:00.000+08:00

im done wif the first test
the standard of the test is wat i've expected
so didnt feel anytin at all
2 more to go in heart centre
2 more at SP
nth is interesting enuff to get my attention

sun rehearsal

2007-11-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

sat was a great day
had supper over at cck
wif pl peeps
i guess aloy didnt get to come out
juz becuz he wanna save his com !
haha anyway the supper was great
me n jun kai looked like animals in the cage
sitting in the lorry we do look like one
haha
bdae cake was nice
thx peeps for the sweet sweet choc cake =)
i didnt noe its for me
i thought it was for joyce :p

i guess supper was too much
or wateva
my gastric rebelled against me
or maybe jing han reminded me tat
i cant drink tea
but in the end i had 1 milk tea frm mos n lemon tea during supper
this might be the reason y im suffering nw
i dun feel like eating
my lips r white
i feel like juz rot on the bed
come on i'll be happier tat way haha

rehearsal today was....
i told hua it will be terrible
i said it will
n its proven
me n heng kai were pretty upset
when our co-ordination cant make it
we were once a pair
i mean not tat kinda pair
but we work tgt a lot in this ministry
wif me playing the keyboard
n him on the guitar
we nv had prob co-ordinating
onli today
i rmb the days when wilson n him
will come to my hse
for a mini jamming session
wif 2 guitars n 1 piano
obviously im the one playing piano
i tried their guitar but trust me
its too huge for me haah
wilson approached me be4
when i was sec 4
to join his to-form-band
n i said okie
but we didnt form one
cuz we're too busy for tat :p

my fingers r terribly getting stiffer
but im thankful my ears r still as sharp
leonard was suprised tat i managed to play the difficult song
but not the simple one -_-
n i managed to figure tat song in quite a short time
im proud of myself =)
anyway tat's nth to be proud of
poor kids like me
hu get trained in music when im 4
should be able to do tat

n im reali dropping dead soon if this cute gastric of mine continue to give me prob

chris

2007-11-10T17:11:00.000+08:00

i noe how it feels
to be tortured by every single memories
i noe how it feels
to wake up in the morning
wanting to do sometin
but in the end
realising tat everytin had ended
i noe how it feels
to cry be4 slp
n slping is due to too much crying
i noe how it feels
to cry even at the small tins tat u c
i noe how it feels
to cant even focus on the simplest tin on earth
n i seriously noe how hurtful it is
for tins to go tat far

cuz i've been like these for the past few weeks
but ger trust me
u still have a hope
so be happy bout it

she noes tat this post is for her =)

yes ! finished HTN

2007-11-10T15:31:00.000+08:00

i felt so proud of myself
when i managed to finish tat HTN ( hypertension) notes
eww
i hate HTN
it's the most boring notes n topic u will ever find
in the whole entire modules tat we r studying
since i've finished the worst note ever
im terribly happy nw =)

i cant imagine
i dreamt bout tat topshop shoe
haha my dream last nite was sooooooo sweet

thank goodness bro came back ytd at the correct time
if not im gonna get drown in the arguments

cant acc bro lester to town
though i reali wan to

i notice tat i study real well
wif 7 hrs of slp
compared to 10 hrs of slp

did my stubborness increase the amount of hurt we get at the end of the day???
unknowningly i became ur burden
n unknowingly i hate myself

guys prob

2007-11-09T21:38:00.000+08:00

i found this real cute tin online :

the prob wif guys =

if u dun love him, he tries to posses u
if u love him, he tries to leave u

if u tell him ur probs, he says u're troublesome
if u don't , he says u dun trust him

if u scold him, u're like a nanny
if he scolds u, it is because he cares for u

if u brk ur promise, u cannot be trusted
if he brk his promise, he is forced to do so

somehow im trying to gather as many evidence as possible
to tell myself how funny guys can get

anyway
hang out wif jing han today in town
she got a pretty nice hair cut
i wanna watch bee movie
notes r driving me mad
i noe i aint focusing
wat's wrong wif my family
bro is happily serving his NS leaving me alone at home
i need some quiet space
supper tml nite =)
gonna buy a cam nxt month
i wan tat organiser book
tat topshop shoe is so attracting me towards it

i dunno wat to post about so im going random recently

tire after work

2007-11-09T00:47:00.001+08:00

i got no idea wat im doing nw
cuz im seriously tire
wif my left eye formally declared dead

work was okie actuali
but i got no idea y im so tire
i felt tat the customers in imm r rather special
they go like : can i have this
huh??? this =??? ani food on the menu???
its equals to saying i wan ( keep quiet)
how in this world will i noe wat does ur "this" means????

n there is this ger
she's super cute
i tink she comes like everyday
to buy ice cream frm us
n all she bought was a plain ice cream
im not sure if she comes everyday
but at least whenever im working
she'll come n buy for at least 5 times !!!
n guess wat
todae i get to noe tat she loves hello kitty
as much as i do
haha but she prefer the blue ones =)

i've decided to follow wat my heart says

clubbing

2007-11-08T15:19:00.000+08:00

i cant believe
tat my bro offered to bring me go clubbing!!!
haha the bro tat lived wif me for 18 yrs
tat bully me ever since im born till nw
damn suddenly he look so scary haha
he noes tat mum wun let me go unless he's there
so nice of him to think of tat =)

nw im juz praying tat my frenz can make it

working later for tat 1.5 pay
im slping soon
he's not working???
i wanna go out
cheerlead training cancelled last min
esther's bf looks real cute
tat guy in sch still look so nice
suddenly i rmb the days in motorola
tat stupid guy tat onli noes how to irritate me
if i stayed on
like how u asked me to
wat will happen btw us?
random thoughts

gems test

2007-11-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

todae was a sch day
needa go back for 2 lessons actuali plus gems will be 3
but 1 was cancelled so onli 2 lessons todae
first lesson was a torture
kinda hungry
got back the marks for the phone test the other time
kept luffing bout my voice when i heard the recording
ewww haha

gems was terrible as usual
im gonna flunk the test AGAIN !
i tried studying
but my head spin like dunno wat
my gastric bloat like dunno wat
i felt like puking
so i go in empty on top

i heard his voice
looked in front
n its him
affected???
yes i was

fish leong

2007-11-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

终于作了这个决定

别人怎么说我不理

只要你也一样的肯定

我愿意天涯海角都随你去

我知道一切不容易

我的心一直温习说服自己

最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气

来面对流言蜚语

只要你一个眼神肯定

我的爱就有意义

我们都需要勇气

去相信会在一起

人潮拥挤我能感觉你

放在我手心里你的真心

如果我的坚强任性

会不小心伤害了你

你能不能温柔提醒

我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

another random

2007-11-06T13:52:00.002+08:00

i intended to get myself sometin online
frm sanrio shop
tat kitty contact lens casing
but i didnt manage to
cuz they sae im under 18 !

i promise when im 18 i will do a lot of tins tat
previously they dun allow !
hmmmm
o i suddenly rmb
there's a shop in china town
tat sells kitty stuff
a veri nice pinkish shop
going there one of these days =)
maybe i can get my casing there

due to the fact tat
i kept having this tinking tat
im gonna go soon
i kept wanting to get a digi cam
pending in process ....

long seng chat wif me online today
weird rite??
i aso cant accept the fact
haha 4 yrs of friendship
but this is the first time we're chatting online
the rest were like
onli a hi in sch
hmmmm

turning 18

2007-11-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

staying at home for such a long period of time
is definately a battle of determination for me
kept wanting to fall aslp
the quieter the surrounding
the further my mind wanders
but if the surrounding is noisy
i cant study

hmmm so where did my mind actuali goes to
many places
tinking of going out
tinking bout the past
wif frenz, family, him
when did i get so emotional???
im always emotional but not tat

getting worst these few days
i cant breathe at nite
my back wanna rebel against me
im forever hungry
my eyes r getting dry

i kept telling mum tat
my life seems to reach the end soon

haha damn i haven turn 18
i haven do so mani M18 stuff
i cant go like tat !

frens r frenz forever

2007-11-05T20:09:00.001+08:00

to all the sweeties :

packing up the dreams God planted
in the fertile soil of you
cant beliee the hopes he's granted
means a chap in ur life is through
we'll keep you close as always, it wont even seem you're gone
cause our hearts in big and small ways
will keep the love that keeps us strong

and frenz and frenz forever
if the lord's the lord of them
and frenz will not sae never
cause the welcome will not end
though its hard to let u go
in the father's hands we know
that a lifetime's not too long
to live as frenz

rmb this song ya???
the days we crack our head
to plan for the smallest tin on earth
slowly to the camp we planned
tat belongs to us
when we slept in the same tent
wear the same clothes
do the same stuff
when we had small arguements
n how we solve it
the days we brave through the terrible map
to make our way frm changi to pasir ris beach
the times where we trained under the sun wif the rifle
just for the short min of parade
how we trained for the 3 drill badges
to the very last camp
we attended
and get our highest award - pioneer brigaders brooch
i rmb every single incident
every single tears
how bout u all???
love u all ^-*

darlings

2007-11-05T20:09:00.000+08:00

i tink im reali veri tire
haha
first time i didnt c bro lester online
(random)

anyway my purpose today
is to sae
im seriously happy
to c all my gers attending the meeting today
im happy to c the wonderful job grace had done
the effort michelle put in
n trina though wasnt in the meeting
but i believe she has her reason
reali happy tat first time
they put effort in their badgework
sry gers
i noe i've neglected u all
for duno how long
for some stupid reasons tat i seriously regret
hope to c u all grow
into a grp of sweet, cute gers

changes

2007-11-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

humans do change veri fast ya?
u, her , him
everyone
juz becuz of???
environment?? friends?? relationship?? family??
shut up !
wat kinda reason is tat?
if u're so true
nth will change

if onli u're willing to hold me tight
n let the both of us face the situation tgt
will we be like tat?
if onli im not the first tin in ur mind to let u give up
instead the first tin for u to tink of how to keep me there
will we be like tat?
if onli u were frank wif me....

if u cherish the friendship we shared
though for tat short period of time or maybe a long period of time
will we be like tat?
if onli ur mind is not filled wif relationship
will we be like tat?

when i was young i asked my mum
how great can love be???
i've found the answer myself
pondering on the thought tat
love can be the sweetest tin on earth
but it can aso be the worst tin u will ever want

im thankful i wasnt cruel in any of the situation above
at least im still me

these days

2007-11-03T09:18:00.001+08:00

went out for yuki yaki meal ytd wif jin n hua
took pics of cuz haha but its all in hua's phone
i said my camera isnt tat gd haha
its time for a digi cam =)

we had super nice chats ytd
frm jin's thin thin figure in sec sch
to anitin under the sun
haha
aint GB fun in the past???
n tat poster tat shows our PBB badge haha

GB today was i dunno how to explain kinda tin
we stood under the sun for dunno how mani hrs
n i start wondering
how did i manage to overcome this kinda tins few yrs back???
haha when we had to stand in the parade square
wif tat uniform
n super hot boots
haha but nw we seemed to "age"
cuz the 3 of us started complaining when we aint in full u

i was so filled wif words by miss eunice
ewwww i dun reali like the feeling
its not as if im scolded
but i juz felt like hey i noe nth seriously

work today was tiring of cuz
tat ice cream machine was kinda gd todae
my washing skills nv improve :p
tat's a bad news i guess
on my way home i realise
i've got sun burn on my cheekbone area -_-"
okie a new topic out of nowhere

damn bro lester has to stay for 8 days in camp
n he might be working on the day of my bdae???
i dun see anything gd in my bdae this yr
it might be worst than expected i guess

he might even forgot its my bdae

sometimes human can be veri funny
they noe tat certain tins happened
for their own good
but on the other hand
they r still hurt by it
aint they weird?

??? still tinking if he was there he will _______

all the unknown "hes" are making me blur
forget it
i love to get blur
at least i need not face the truth
for the time being =)

there were times i started tinking
if one day im gone
who are the ones who will reali moan???
who are the ones who truely wish tat
im stil arnd???

a way back into love

2007-11-03T09:18:00.000+08:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I
've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
ot just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that
I'll be there for you in the end

PTN

2007-11-01T00:50:00.001+08:00

had PTN todae
but before tat we needa go back for one lesson
at NHC
thank goodness its onli 1 haha
aniway PTN at earls swensen
i promise im not gonna go there again
the quality of the food aint worth the price
esp when someone like me
hu aint reali tat particular bout food complains bout it
haha

looks dark????
this is definately better

xiao hui ( the sweetest ger) n me haha

the game plan is a veri nice show
touching funny etc...
its juz like those other shows where this kid went to stay wif this adult
but i still find the show wonderful
touching + comedy is sometin i reali love =)

nic

2007-11-01T00:50:00.000+08:00

nic called me suddenly
cuz i gave him a happy bdae msg n he was touched
called me late at nite
we chatted
it felt like last time
so last time when we will chat for few hrs on the phone

thx nic
for reminding me tat u will always dote on me like be4
n tat i always have tat cheerful tone on the phone
thx for ur encouragement
esp this :

=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: if hor. ... given a chance .. with how i know u now... back in my secondary sch days.. i sure chose u de .. HAHA
=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: where to find such a gd girl
=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: i am serious
=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: =.=
=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: i mean if everything start from the begining again la

and this :
=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: i seriously wish to stay in contact with u .. z.. i miss the times when u played for me canon. .. and when ur mother answer the phone and tell me .. SHE IS NOT FREE !!!

this:

=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: promise me stay the same => //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: stay happy => //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: stay cute => //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: stay cheerful

maybe this too :

=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: his not the right 1

=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: anyway as i told u from the start

=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: if u rem

=> //\\////\\// <= =] LD [= says: i dun like him

damn haha u reminded me tat i was in love wif u for 3 damn yrs haha
u reminded me how ur gf got jealous becuz we were msging
thx bro
u're still as sweet as ever

u're the onli one hu types my name correctly
u managed to sense my disappointment in love
u encouraged me to be strong
how can i ever forget this wonderful guy in my life???

u said before
u hope tat u r the guy in my life
so tat u can take care of me
cuz u noe u will nv hurt me
but i once told u be4
tat we will nv be tgt
u said again few yrs later
tat one day in future
we might be tgt
the ans i will give is still the same
cuz i rather lost a bf
than a nice bro =)

chatting wif u ytd
made me realize how much i've neglected u in the past
i felt even bad
when u r still as sweet as ever
i promise
tat if one day i happen to neglect u again
u will still get a msg on 31 oct
every yr =)

gathering

2007-10-31T23:51:00.000+08:00

i was kinda touched
when gary msg me on msn
we didnt reali tok much
but he still gave me tat
how r u kinda feeling
we had some short chats
n ya very touched by his : hi how r u

all of us went out todae
it was a great gathering
many flashbacks though

i had a cry back at home
yes im weak
come on face the fact
im nv strong
i didnt sae i was strong
everyone assumed i was
no one can be strong when there r juz so many damn tins happening
tins arnd me r nv simple as wat it shows
im drained out
seriously i am
maybe some ppl can still be strong
but i noe tat person can nv be me
im juz a under 18 ger hu needs some space to breathe

once in my life
there's a guy
who loves me wholeheartedly
in his heart everytin is about me
wateva he does
all he wans is for my welfare
even though he's like tat
he never neglect any thing in his life
not even one
so i respect him a lot

i noe very well tat this guy is missing nw
but im sure tat
he will be back one day
n on tat day he will live a happier life

gers dun need guys

2007-10-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

i got pretty upset when i saw tat email
its the whole cycle
when u do sometin
n certain ppl
JUZ DUN APPRECIATE IT
im losing my heart for commitment

training today for the dunno wat tin was kinda funny
i dunno how to explain
but trust me im yawning for every 5 mins interval???

until the activity part
it woke me up
though i find the game kinda stupid :p
cuz ive been playing tat ever since im sec 1
the secret to wining is to piggyback one or two
but todae the rule kinda changed
no piggyback allowed
so....
too bad we took a long time to complete
but guess wat
haha we managed to do it

gers dun need guys to be arnd to do certain tins
gers dun need guys to be made complete
and definately they dun need guys to give them happiness
save them from getting hurt
is the best tin a guy should do

S.H.E

2007-10-27T21:29:00.001+08:00

慢慢失忆

所有和你的事情必须忘记

爱的盆地

生怕再一滴眼泪就会决堤

我也不想被你看低

在这个时候说我让你感动过

* 别握住我的手说我一定会懂

逐步承认爱人变成最好朋友

别牵着我的手想着别人脸孔

换个方式牵手并不会更好过

可不可以不做你的朋友

pic spree

2007-10-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

rmb bout the 2 officer retreat i went???? haha i promise bout the photos ^-*sweetie von n jadyn
opps haha wat's joshua n jadyn doing???

okie here comes cutie pie jadna ( i dunno if her name is spelled like tat :p)
jadna : wat big hands here's the pic for the officers retreat at miss sherine's hsejadna : hi pals ! im going off
my siew mai trolley
opps end

i pose first

uncle auntie wan buy my siew mai????okie im done wif the story wif jadna nw will be my life in heart centre haha
sometimes its bad to take ppl's pic like wat xiao hui is doing haha cuz u might end up on other ppl's camera n tat's me =)

juz when me n tabby is taking a pic..... someone's hand behind.....n the someone is u noe hu haha

come on georgi n lyn stop hiding

haha frm this pic u noe whose hand is tat?? haha weird i c my jacket in this pic haha

n i noe im scary

still hiding???

there u go haha nw i c lyn's face

i love this ger haha cuz she has the same bdae as me.... we look alike???
okie hong hwee stop forcing haha i noe u r not rude nw haha

c???? i said im bored

n this??? haha shows im even "bore-er"

ewwww my lecture
look sweet??? come on this particular meal i didnt have $$$$ to pay...

look at the diff btw this 2 pic... the top one is wat i wear for attachment n the bottom one is my dress coat for wed sch =)