Monday, December 31, 2007
its been a messy week for me
i've been sick for
u -noe- how -long
the fever was okie
lasted for like 3 days?
near 4 ba
its my gastric tat's killing me
i feel like puking every min
i hate food recently
ewwww
but im better nw la
i got no idea wat's happening
but im thankful that im better nw
the east coast trip was gd
super gd
even though im rewarded with
tons of blue black
n a case of mars banging into earth ( yk noe wat's wrong)
but its reali veri fun
ps : bro we go again nxt time =)
im terribly sry for not able to join the babes for the vivo tin
my gastric is giving me a lot of prob tat nite
let me c wat i've missed out
yea guys r giving me a lot of prob recently
A LOT !
tat's all
out to vivo later
=)
Friday, December 28, 2007
i got no idea but to ask why
why muz there be more than friendship
btw 2 opposite sex
i got no idea wat i wan nw
its obvious
im juz living my life like how it goes
smoothly and tat's it
sometimes i juz wish
leave me alone
feel the beat. [12:36 PM]
in the past
u lost this grp of frenz
but nw
u got them back
at first i was worried
but come to tink of it
wat right do i have
Monday, December 24, 2007
i so damn feel like puking nw
went to town again
to get cookies for my bro
haha for wateva reason
he bought me the mascara i wanted
so i decided to get him sometin too
everywhere is so crowded
juz makes me feel so sick
went over to visit ong san n aunty wendy
they r overwhelmed haha
i miss them too
n it seems like they still dunno anytin?
i thought they should noe
i mean its such a "big" tin
tat ppl love to gossip about
i noe u're not the one
the feeling is juz diff
but u reali disappoint me
to the max
none of u r the right one
nth is right at all !
Sunday, December 23, 2007
im havin slight fever nw
n im going out later
haha
no choice i needa get some christmas present
meeting jin later
finali i get to c her
for like few hrs
this means a lot to me
haha reali
a lot !
Saturday, December 22, 2007
i notice tat
end of the year is approaching real soon
afraid tat i do not have sufficient time
to blog these
i shall blog it today
i wish :
my parentsto stay happy forever as a pair
i thank them for their love
the love that nv change
even though im a rebellious n stubborn girl
u 2 noe how much i love the both of u
thanks for wiping away my tears
and say : we love u darling
my broto have a fruitful life
and thanks for the happy bdae u said to me
thanks for showing me
how much u care for me
n how unhappy u are
when u noe im hurt
my frenzi wun be here
if u guys are not arnd
thanks for always letting me noe tat
no matter wat happens u guys are forever there
sry for causing so much worries
i love all ur craziness
i love all ur fun
n i love all of u =)
my frenz who are in lovei give all of u
my blessings
may this love be forever sweet
afterall that's wat love is =)
my frenz who are not in lovebabes ! the time is not right yet
sometimes having early relationship
is not that gd too
wait patiently
and the right one will appear
n show u the right meaning of love =)
bro lester n nicu 2 are forever that caring
towards me
im thankful for all the effort u 2 put in
to make me feel better
all the best bros
my whole nite was terrible
with a up and down temp
panadol for the whole day
eyes swell as normal
test today was weird
i couldnt concentrate
of cuz
i didnt get to slp the whole nite
the clinic tat i always go to
will reopen on 27 dec
gd huh
this means tat i wun have med
till 27 dec
i missed the make up class ytd
just becuz im having a fever
and i look like a ___
when i turn up for test today
jing han sae tat i'm fine
thank goodness
Friday, December 21, 2007
wed nite out at arena
a nice place???
i got no idea
kinda okie ba
the whole atmosphere is better than zouk
but the light there is terrible
it makes me super giddy
but the whole feeling was okie
damn i would have said yes
if u didnt put ur hands on my waist
a nice guy i would sae
at least he asked
i started opening my eyes
n ask myself
if this is wat i wan
y did tat touch
feel so nice n secure
when its onli out of fun
they sae if one day someone kidnap me
i wun noe
n i find this
quite true :p
feel the beat. [12:47 PM]
im getting worried nw
it seems like
nw i wish u could c this post
look
i dun mean to stare
it wasnt intentionally
u might be tinking tat
im being bad for not smiling
being petty for staring
but the truth n fact is
i couldnt rmb u
at all
all i noe is tat u're someone familar
but back to reality
angela said : wat's so nice bout rmb u
feel the beat. [12:18 PM]
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
just when i stop n look at myself
i started complaining again
i nv reali had a guy tat love me truely
3 relationship in the past?
but none consist of true love
miserable huh
wat does it meanwhen a guy sae : i love youand yet look at other gers on the street?
i've been doubting this phrase
for the past few months
love???
wat does it reali consist of?
responsiblity? care ? respect?i got no idea
since i failed in all 3 relationships
it juz signify that im bad in it in one way or another
i always thought tat as long as
u give in ur true feelings
n reali love
u'll get back the same in return
only then i noe
i was terribly wrong
u wun get back the sameif that guy dun love u
the way u did
den it all went back to my qn
what does it mean when a guy sae : i love uto be frank
it means nth to me
cuz all i wan is not to hear the 3 words
but to c them
the onli tin which i will nv complain about:
i love my character
i find it special in one way or another
im made up of gd and bad points
im proud of my gd
irritated by my bad
but i believe tat its these gds and bads
that make enci
feel the beat. [10:30 PM]
im out for some fun tml =)
feel the beat. [10:30 PM]
Monday, December 17, 2007
i cant change my blog skin
and im feeling sad regarding this
haha y y y????
feel the beat. [10:37 AM]
im supposed to go back
to malaysia like real soon
but my plan was screwed up
finali im meeting jin to get my tins
FINALI~
haha poor ger
she's like so busy
its like
mid month
n im broke
i needa work
i wanna work
but i need to study more
ewwww~
feel the beat. [10:37 AM]
Sunday, December 16, 2007
if a gal cried infront of u,
it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
if u take her hand,
she will stay with u for the rest of your life;
if u let her go,
she couldn't go back to herself anymore.
A gal wont cry easily,
expect infront of the person
who she loves most,she become weak.
A gal wont cry easily,
only when she loves u the most,
she put down her ego.
Guys, if a gal cries because of u,
please hold her hand firmly,
she's the one who would stay with u
for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a gal cries because of u,
please dont give her up,
maybe because of ur decision,
u ruin her life.
when she cry infront of u,
when she cry because of u,
look into her eyes,
can u see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?
THINK.which other gal have criedwith pure sincerity,infront of uand because of u?she cry not because she is weak,she cry not because she want sympathy or pity,she cry,because crying silently is no longer possible,the pain,hurt, and agonyhave become too big a burden to be kept inside.GUYS,think about it,if a gal cry her heart out to u,and all because of u,its time to look back on wat u have done,only u will know the answer to it.Do consider it,cause one day,
it may be too late for regret
it may be too late to say"i'm sorry"
dont do this to a gal,
u may regret for the rest of your ife,
maybe in ur life,she's the only one that LOVE U THE MOST!!
i got this frm somewhere obviously
n started pondering on every single word
feel the beat. [11:29 PM]
rackie on sat was gd
but tiring
cuz i didnt get enuff slp
yes ! no lizards
or rather there is but since my face is like
so high up
therefore i see none =)
went over to OCH
rackie???
yes haha
weird but i guess funny
we explored the whole place
but guess my gers r not using it
haha
when they sae the gers will appear to be like their officers
yes they do
they have my blur and timid
of cuz xiao hua's motherly character haha ( some ba???)
finali i rested at home on sun
though not enuff
but i shall be contented wif it
todae is the worst day of my life
the onli time i step out of hse
is when i go for dinner
so the whole day
im rotting
studying
n continue rotting
i hate this feeling
of not getting out for some fun
but i reali need some rest
few days back my shoulder ache like hell
pasted sometin on it
for like the whole day
n i look like im old
breakfast was gd today
i didnt have my lunch
onli like 2 donuts, half a bar of hershey's cookie n cream
den dinner
chilli crab , sambal veg and tofu
nw my gastric is scolding me
so im feeling terrible nw
tml i shall go on a light diet
this sentence sounds so wrong
when will enci noe the defination of light diet???
i got no idea =)
my CVL prac test is on tue
ewwww
but nvm i shall go causeway point after tat
haha for u- know- wat reason =)
how long does promises last?
Saturday, December 15, 2007
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of*, clarity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
The path that I'm walking I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foreseek the dark ahead if I stay
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of*, clarity
Peace,Serenity
ytd was the christmas party
we were looking forward to it
doing all the tins we can for the party
and i guess
in the end
tins are unfair towards us
sad???
yes we are
to the class :
babes we did great
we r the sweetest bunch of gers
so lets not allow those kinda words hurt us
though its hard
to tabby hong hwee n myself :
we put in lotz of effort
didnt we???
but the world is unfair
right from the start its nv fair
those stupid words of theirs hurt us deeply
but at least we can tell ourselves tat
we've done our best
im so upset
when i heard wat they said bout us
n for KPL
she was so hurt
n for the rest of the techs
thx for appreciating our hardwork
well there are bound to be black sheeps among the techs
n we are terribly disappointed in their words
women of their ageacting worst than little gers like ushow great r they as an adult?not knowing how to appreciate at this age?i feel sad for themn im happy for us
cuz its a fact tat we r better than them
at least we noe the words :
thank youafter the day in heart centrewas out in town wif hua n lianwe had a super fun time shoppingbut i guess we r juz too tireso there r some point of time we r so downhaha but overall the nite is high !hahahey you !yes its for udun worry too much if he's a nice guytime will prove everytinmy little advice for uis to prevent u frm getting unnecessary hurtbut the final decison is yoursu must rmbsome decisions u can sae nvm juz move onbut there r somewill foreva live in ur heartu still have us here
loving u isnt it gd enuff?? haha
Thursday, December 13, 2007
since my top arrived today
i felt better
n im gonna go back malaysia
as soon as possible
will come back when its time for me to
i was so upset
when u brought the whole incident up again
i noe tat ur intention aint bad
but do u have any tiny idea
how long i took to get rid of tat guilt i have
yes its a straight fact that i hurt someone be4
i didnt want that to happen
i didnt even plan for it to happen
do u noe how hard it is
to swallow every prob u have
n not saying anitin out
until the point when everytin falls flat
tat's when u speak out all ur secrets
n den u noe tat tins wun be like tat
if in the first place u asked for advice
i took so long
to face the fact tat i screwed everytin up
i screwed the guy hu loves me so deeply
juz becuz of someone so unworthy
im still blaming myself nw
but i noe tat he who once love me so deeply
juz wants me to smile
more than anything else
so i moved on
but nw
im all back to square one
do u noe tat i rather it had nv happened at all
i tried posting ytd
but it didnt worked out
anyway
nth much happened today
all i rmb was tat im super tire
luckily today was kinda slack for me
HA report is killing me
i did one report for a whole 2 hrs
n i nearly gave up
but nvm eventually i managed to finish it
be4 lecture
after tat i spent like few mins on another analysis
n im done wif 2 for the day =)
after lunch we did nth
onli like discuss for tml's party
n we're all looking forward to everytin !
haha another slacking time for us
den our hols will be smiling at us =)
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
having pharmo test tml
KPL said tat the notes we had this yr
is the same as the one she had last time
ewww this shows how efficient SP lecturers are
HAHA
tabby said i look tire
yes i am
haha so i decided to have some coffee
n hong hwee commented tat
it doesnt help me
yea she noe me real well
haha
coffee dun create any effect on me
i dunno why
im supposed to hate coffee
i mean i hate coffee
but its true tat when im tire
i'll drink wateva tat keeps me awake
or managed to let me tink tat im awake
im not done wif my pharmo revision
i didnt even finish studying in the first place
n here i am
sticking my face on the com screen
sinful me
im depriving myself frm music these few days
cuz im practically deaf when my ear piece r on
i decided to give my ears some hols
if not its gonna rebel one day
mum is talking too loud
i cant slp
i cant study
becuz of her voice ~
damn n i sound like her !
bro is going to taiwan nxt month
for his NS tin
maybe i will get to eat tat egg tin
haha !!!!!
im learning a new dialect nw
n i sound like a kid learning ABC
if i cant even trust u
wat's the point?
Monday, December 10, 2007
i started pondering
if im happy nw
happy with the life i've chosen
happy with the attention im given
happy with the love i've recieved
happy with the route i've taken
and i guess
i do
i dun like the phrase : what if
but i find tat
most of the time
i live my life with full of regrets
and somehow i got no reasons for those
did i mention tat i was tire???
o my bag had arrived
the top tat i ordered has been sent out too
im having a test on wed
GEMS lesson is cancelled on wed
n im looking forward to movie i guess
attachment is getting more n more exciting each day
my long hols r coming again
cuz my exams r getting real near
attachment aint fun at all
tiring can be the easiest word to use
learning n doing at the same time
aint an easy task
im going real random nw
got some pics on hand
will upload when i have more time
Saturday, December 8, 2007
im super tire ytd
but i still tried blogging
in the end i gave up
or rather the internet gave up on me
connection was super bad
so i went to slp instead
ytd's ECG was gd i guess
nth much to do
first patient came in arnd 9
n there aint much of them
onli at one point
but after tat it was rather okie
lunch at 12 cuz we got lesson at 1
Dr Tan totally forgotten bout us
so he didnt come for the lecture
but mrs Ho didnt forget us
so in the end we got her lesson
but once again her lesson was short
KPL came in n have a short talk wif us
after which we're free to go home
met bro lester after tat
went to visit ah cheng
yes ! finali haha
i've been wanting to go down
but time dun allow me to
after chatting we went down to cine to meet nico n annabelle
we walked there actuali
cuz we got tons of time
n i finali noe where is ROM
haah bro sae i dun needa noe the exact location haha
okie i trust u this time round
we had BBQ chic for dinner
basically its the outlet richard is working at
he said i become skinny-er
but lester sae i become rounder
ewwww haha
after tat we were walking arnd
went down to isetan
n suddenly we missed everytin
the times when we were working tgt
n wat we will shout when someone dropped sometin
the fact tat we have to wash the ice cream machine everyday
the squeezy kit
dish up n cashier area
n floor too
aint it sometin worthy to miss?
sometins are meant to change
n nth last forever
even the relationship btw humans
its forever changing
but i guess the tin tat will nv change
is a true love =)
i c myself falling for the wrong feelings
n i hope i aint going too deep :p
its juz a crush i noe
im not going into true relationship for the time being
cuz i dun c myself ready for a true love tin
if i aint confident in loving
i will nv let it happen at all
having crush on someone aint a bad tin either huh
feel the beat. [10:22 AM]
Thursday, December 6, 2007
me n fel today had a damn adventurous day
we explored the whole SGH
haha we have a reason k
we were supposed to do 44inpt in the morning
who noes everyone went for their course
n there's no one at 44inpt at all
i called kpl n she said= go walk arnd
den we walk arnd lor
haha we explored a lot of places
but our main aim is to find nursery
finali we found it
but there r no babies at all
we onli heard a lot of cries
sad huh
after tat fel insisted on going to the slp disorder unit
n we went
n got questioned
cuz i tink we're not supposed to be there
haha
my whole day is like
a slping day for me
n nw im bout to fall aslp.....
this is the first time
i look at a rainbow
at such a distance
wat a wonderful sight it was
then i was reminded
where did ur smile go to???
u are always tat strong
wat makes u tink tat
u're weaker nw???
ever since tat day
i find myself moving on real well =)
its been a while
n occasionally when i look back
im thankful for wateva had happened
cuz it made me tougher than wat i was previously
it made me learn how to appreciate even the smallest tin on earth
it made me love myself more
instead of hating myself for wateva happened
im happy wif my life nw
indeed im happier
im more like myself
i enjoy the freedom i have nw
and i juz wan it to go on this way
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
ygot back my third paper's result
haha u can c how contented i am
attachment was still the same
but im tire ~
went out wif bro lester, nico n annabelle
wanted a movie at first
but nico n annabelle went for one first
after tat me n lester walked all the way
frm central to cine
haha not reali tat far
but nw i noe where's ROM
haha
there r lotz of cool buildings arnd
so i had a nice time
we had a nice chat too
went to c ah cheng
finali had the chance to
always wanted to go
but didnt reali have the chance
my necklance broke todae =(
n im tempted to buy a new one
i still feel like getting the topshop shoe
but i needa buy my contact lens solution first
the sky is still so beautiful tonight
i got no idea y
BUT
im NOT IN LOVE !!!!
or rather
im in love
wif my frenz
my family
myself
full stop =)
i hope tat this time round
i did sometin gd for this whole situation
i got no idea wat i have done to u
but i reali do hope tat
i minimise the hurt
same thing
i will continue to wish u all the best
u will find someone for u
go for her
cuz im not supposed to be the one
and ger
i seriously hope tat u or any frenz of mine
will nv go thru the same tin tat i had
so i was pretty worried when i saw ur blog
BUT
after much consideration
i trust both of u a lot
so NTH should happen
ger try to smile more
by doing tat u give him a lot of encouragement n help
he needs it nw
n bro ( u noe im referring to u )
i noe ur life is kinda "messy" nw
i tink it is????
but anyway solve everytin wif her
u 2 shall move on tgt
n me as a fren
will continue to give u 2 all my blessings =)
i guess there r juz so mani tins to sae
work on sun was super tiring
unknowingly i worked till closing
though tire but i guess the day was gd
jeffery allowed me to stay in the kit
though i was onli kidding
after work
my hand had a smell of blood haha
the smell
tat was so familar be4
i rmb i was veri tireon my way homei looked at the skywondering wat a nice sightthe black sky was filled wif small shiny stuffyes ! its the starsi always loved stars ever since im youngcuz the fact tat they r able to deco the skymakes me tinkhow beautiful they arethe sky tat nite caught my whole attentionn i forgotten the fact tat
i was tire
but when i got home
i fall flat :p
mon n tue this week
im at CVL lab
again the whole atmosphere
was tense n stressful
but i guess i managed it better nw
wed sch day
quite a cool looking guy said hi to me
i thought i noe him so i smile back
in the end im left wif qn marks
do i noe him??? haha
a grp of guys in gems class were staring at us
n we or rather i concluded tat
li ting's bag caught their attentionso li ting !!! haha admit this come on !
there r certainly quite a number of tins
for me to feel sweet bout
firstly will be tat customer
hu always buy ice cream frm us
rmb???
haha somehow
she got to noe tat its my bdae on sun
n she got me a present
hello kitty tins of cuz ! haha
its a simple gift
but i find it veri sweet of her
a gift frm a customer
cool huh ~
nxt is this patient
i did holter for her when she was staying in the hospital
few weeks ago
n on tue this week
i saw her in heart centre
i called her
n she rmb me !!!!
haha
she thank me
n i guess no words can express how touch i was
sometimes little tins in this world
juz makes me feel tat
simple words like = thank you and hi
can mean a lot
and little actions
can touch anyone
of cuz
the world is still a nice n sweet place =)
i have so much tins to sae
but be4 tat i shall post some pics first
this is wat happens when i insisted on going to somewhere near at nite
i ended up wif my specs n super big clothes ( hong hwee sae i look like im going to bed soon )
n not to forget
im munching on food =)
went for another singing session wif the gers
haha we had fun didnt we???? fel where r u ????
smile =)
Saturday, December 1, 2007
thurs was okie i guess
cuz its a 1/2 day work in NHC
sec half of the day we're back to sch
for test n a talk
after tat we're like 1/2 gone
its tiring
i got no idea y
but im yawning every few mins
den i discover
im not feeling veri well -_-
fri was bad
i got shouted at by 2 patients
the first one was an uncle
rather old
so i didnt blame him
we were running thru his report
n discover sometin kinda bad
so we had to shift his appointment date nearer
in the end the date was okie
but the uncle was unhappy wif the timing
i tried explaining to him tat i will help him change
but he kept on nagging
n his voice was loud
so the whole heart centre patients / humans looked at me
den after tat another patient
he asked me / demanded a report for his wife
i got no idea y their report took so long
but the fact tat he demand = his voice is loud too
again
everyone looked at me
bringing a lot of qn marks wif me
i went back to EP room
den i noe
tat the sec patient's report cant be read
cuz she unknowing disturbed the device
wif her itchy hand
tat's y her report took sooooo long
both patient mdae my morning bad
BUT
it didnt affect my mood for too long
sat was cool
i went all the way
to ACS
alone of cuz for yc
the most impt tin is
I DIDNT GET LOST
great ~ haha
the whole tin was partially screwed
they dimed the lights till
me n heng kai cant c our scores
u noe wat
musician hu r "blind", "deaf" ( cuz i cant hear wat im playing)
cant play much
i tried to play
but the pedal , keyboard bothers me a lot
ewwww
n nw i discover tat
im gonna fall sick soon ~
feel the beat. [10:14 PM]
this is wat happens when i insisted on going to somewhere near at nite
went for another singing session wif the gers
smile =)
